I can't believe it. I simply cannot believe it.
Furthermore, I can't believe I'm writing about it.
I've misplaced my Christmas spirit. I'm a bit scroogy (a trait reserved usually for hubby not "moi.") I'm not enjoying the season. I'm not in the mood for Christmas. I've tried to get there - via shopping for the best deals, planning, making lists etc. It's just not working. Could it be that I'm totally on the wrong track? That maybe (prepare yourself - goin' out on a limb here) I'm too busy being world-focused, thing-centered and self-absorbed. I know that Christmas is not about the wrappings, trimmings, gifting, cooking, eating, and all of the indulgences of the season. I know that it's about the birth of our Savior and God's gift to us. But, I can honestly (and very disgustedly) say that all I've thought about since the week prior to Thanksgiving is sales, gifts, presents and what I need to get where. Yuck yuck yuck. Am I bringin' you down?
Could it be that the world's recipe for Christmas is not the answer?
Why...whatever gave me that idea. Could it be because I've spent too much, returned some in an effort to even things out a bit, and, in the process, robbed not only my checkbook but myself and my family. I've traded my happiness for guilt and emptiness. I've robbed myself and those around me of the joys of giving and sharing in the season that is about that very thing. Oh, I've been wanting to give...to buy...to wrap...to have...STUFF. I've successfully (READ PRIDEFULLY) avoided focusing on the reason for the season. I thought - well duh, I know what the season is about. I don't need read about, think about all of that. I know about Jesus and his birth. Thus...I am robbing of myself, my family and the ones I love of the very best part of the season. So, what now? Well, I wish I could say that I have a plan for fixing everything. But, I don't have one - exactly.
Furthermore, I can't believe I'm writing about it.
I've misplaced my Christmas spirit. I'm a bit scroogy (a trait reserved usually for hubby not "moi.") I'm not enjoying the season. I'm not in the mood for Christmas. I've tried to get there - via shopping for the best deals, planning, making lists etc. It's just not working. Could it be that I'm totally on the wrong track? That maybe (prepare yourself - goin' out on a limb here) I'm too busy being world-focused, thing-centered and self-absorbed. I know that Christmas is not about the wrappings, trimmings, gifting, cooking, eating, and all of the indulgences of the season. I know that it's about the birth of our Savior and God's gift to us. But, I can honestly (and very disgustedly) say that all I've thought about since the week prior to Thanksgiving is sales, gifts, presents and what I need to get where. Yuck yuck yuck. Am I bringin' you down?
Could it be that the world's recipe for Christmas is not the answer?
Why...whatever gave me that idea. Could it be because I've spent too much, returned some in an effort to even things out a bit, and, in the process, robbed not only my checkbook but myself and my family. I've traded my happiness for guilt and emptiness. I've robbed myself and those around me of the joys of giving and sharing in the season that is about that very thing. Oh, I've been wanting to give...to buy...to wrap...to have...STUFF. I've successfully (READ PRIDEFULLY) avoided focusing on the reason for the season. I thought - well duh, I know what the season is about. I don't need read about, think about all of that. I know about Jesus and his birth. Thus...I am robbing of myself, my family and the ones I love of the very best part of the season. So, what now? Well, I wish I could say that I have a plan for fixing everything. But, I don't have one - exactly.
But I am working on one. Time for plan B...which should've been Plan A!
Step one, dust off God's Word and start to refocus. Remember the reason for the season. I think up to this point, I've thought that sounded trite...until now.